Indescribable;;

Saturday, May 20, 2006:

have you ever wondered what you would do when you're this close to death? have you ever thought of the question? maybe you're suffering from a pain in your abdomen that lasted for a whole 20 minute duration and it hurt so bad that you felt like you were going to die.. or something. what would you do?

and what would you do if you were watching someone suffering from that pain? how can you reach out to help that person, when you dont know how to? when all you can do is just stand there and pray really hard for that person, it even becomes too shocking to cry.. its just so painful to see the person scream in short bursts of agony and whimper when its hurting to much to even make a noise. can you imagine how the person's family member(s) would feel like?

all you can do is just pray and pray and pray for healing and His grace to fall on this person. i'll never know how much it hurt that person but all i know is that it almost had the power to kill. and it was scary. really scary.

i wonder if i will fear death when it comes knocking on my door, despite knowing that i will have eternal life after death.. hmm. there's just so many what will happen's in my mind right now.

it just makes me appreciate what i have now..

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

a shout of praise.
10:47 PM